A few minutes before practicing yoga a few weeks ago, I saw how my friend Shana entered the studio. Glad to see her, I jumped up and immediately heard a POP in my leg.
But because I can be stubborn
and deliberately I decided to stay.
It's not so bad.
You can make it to the end.
Come on, Robin, you're cool. Have you received it.
As soon as I half tried to pose as warrior 2, it became VERY clear that I needed to go.
The tail, sandwiched between my legs,
I grabbed my mat and ran out of class.
Tim, my finding a physiotherapist, diagnosed the injury the next day (tense gastrocnemius muscle) and ordered me to take a PT for several weeks.
It was not as bad as I was afraid
but it will take some time to heal.
With extra time in my hands,
I did what I always do – analyze and think through and, ultimately, look
The lesson was familiar
one. I pressed myself too hard. My body sent warning signals in days
before the POP, but I ignored them.
Because, like many women
there I struggle with a feeling that is enough for me.
You must be stronger.
You should be thinner.
You have to work harder.
MORE yoga. MORE hiking. MORE rowing. Most.
A few days ago i read it
message from Seth Godin.
How big is your blank hole?
It doesn't matter, does it?
All your bad habits (and some of your good ones) exist to fill this hole or to protect it from being seen.
And as long as our mission is to fill the hole and the hole remains blank (and after all this time, if it’s not filled yet, good luck with it) small, trivial or not mentioned there is a hole.
It still leads us.
The first step to living with it is to recognize it.
You can't make him go.
But you can learn to dance with it.
No number of meters in rowing or FitBit steps taken or lost pounds will lead to an elusive destination known as sufficient. Being “enough” is my unfilled hole. For you it can be pleasant, safe, whole or seen. A non-performing hole can be an injury that you have experienced, or a loss of a loved one.
What I like most about the post of Seth Godin is the line “you can't make her leave.” Attempts to make her leave usually lead to trouble, right? All the chocolate and wine drinks, Prozac, marathons and Netflix drunkenness in the world cannot fill the void.
We can't make it go, but we can recognize and accept it. We can increase our ability to practice compassion for ourselves. We can increase our self-esteem. We can learn from mistakes, forgive ourselves for being human, and move forward with greater wisdom than before.
The hole remains, but the dance can become more and more elegant.
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